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Brief Considerations by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Brief Considerations

I have briefly considered burning. Though always smouldering, there was never quite a flame, so to speak. I have always been more like a dim light, glaring from a distance. After lengthy consideration, it has been decided that the acrid stench would do me no favours. I have grown to accept that I am no star, no source of light for the malcontent. I am just one small light, flickering, wavering, barely existing; Yet I carry on and that is good enough for now.

Work In Progress by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Work In Progress

My mouth tastes like powder and bone dust; The things you thought that I would never be. I am ticking, slowly, counting down to zero before I take a breath and begin again. I can’t control the snakes in my chest or the hive in my brain. I don’t breathe the way I used to; It is laboured and stilted and I think that maybe, just maybe, I am inhaling my very death.

Os(Iris) by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Os(Iris)

Your eyes are like a city filled with pedestrians and over- grown footpaths; Schoolboys hopping fences as soldiers return from war. There are tales of love and loss to be found here, between the Parisien cafés and Dutch bicycle paths. Down desolate alleyways I found you again and again, buried beneath the ruins of old monuments; I hear you sighing as you rebuild them, piece by piece, muttering only the word 'if'. If only you could see this city and the landscape that surrounds it, the sprawling vistas and hidden crawlspaces; You would know the heartache of being and the beauty of living. You are all that is known

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Stasis

I am filled with static; Inert and in constant motion, I am what was and what will come to be. I have seen the rise and fall of cities, bore the flame that would devour me whole; Crushed by you, my Zeus, I am nought but a weary Prometheus. I will make a house of rock and bone, lay my head on the ridges that sigh and expand; The rib of Adam and the sin of Eve reside here. My saviour, stillborn, is lying in a manger, and I move ever onwards, inhaling but not breathing.

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Nightlight by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Nightlight

I saw you leave, shut the door and flick off the light, shrouded in misery that only you knew. I felt the weight of your breath hanging in the air, laced with doubt and unsung worries. You never told me about the demons that dwelled in your chest, or the monsters that plagued your dreams. I would have sat by you, night after night, screaming incantations and loading silver bullets had I known the trials you faced. Now you're gone, I stare down this empty hallway, then flicking off the light, shut the door behind me.

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I could bleed permanence and virtue, bear the child of your assigned God and weep at your feet, yet I would still hold no place in the city you call 'home'. Were I the harbinger of doom and destruction, I would receive fanfares from the weary as I enter their crumbling citadels and burn the last of their hope. I am not of your blood, not of your kin. I am the facade of the towers and spires that crumble beneath your hatred. I am not welcome

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Work In Progress by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Work In Progress

Os(Iris) by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Os(Iris)

Stasis by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Stasis

Beethoven Was Deaf by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

Nightlight by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Nightlight

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Fractured by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Fractured

Speaking with you is like pressing my lips against a fractured mirror and exhaling - Contact has been made, but it can never endure the predicted gales of apathy and despair. Frequently I find my breath becoming trapped in the veins of the looking glass, forming miniature lakes on which I imagine us to be “gone fishing” for all eternity. In truth, you have left; Gone fishing and drinking with the salty old dogs you keep company with, while I sit alone staring at mirrors, wondering where and how the first fracture began.

Fractured

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Phosphorus by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Phosphorus

So you're made of broken birds' wings and transatlantic fevers; I'm not a doctor and you're not easily fixed. You're shedding scales and empty promises, and I'm slowly losing patience; Piecing you back together is not my prerogative. Your bones creak like ancient doors and you're becoming unhinged; I can see right through you, but the problem is this; I am made of matchsticks and glue, a papiér mâché paradigm for the broken-hearted. And you are burning, much too bright; If I stand too close, I know I will be devoured. So I leave your scales and broken wings to atrophy, taking one of each as a keepsake.

Phosphorus

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Mass Elimination by BloodStainAffiliate, literature

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Mass Elimination

The sky bleeds tonight, dousing us in vermilion as greying clouds slash through the glowing moon. We are slicing through the crescent moon, monochromatic cirri moving mercilessly and drowning out the moonlight. I can feel the weight of a million supernovae as they fall from their heights upon our human forms. We are all exploding, shining brighter as we

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Nov 2
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Deviant for 16 years
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I love life, and if you're really lucky, maybe one day I'll love you.

But not really.

Go suck a dick.

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Marion Peck, Dali, Magritte, Kandinsky, Markoya, Harry Clarke

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SYL, Meshuggah, Acid Bath, Nile, Behemoth, Necros Christos, Dead Congregation, etc.

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BloodStainAffiliate

Nov 7, 2013

I thought and stuff

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I wrote a new poem. Chime the bells and all that. I also considered leaving the apartment, even though I don't actually have to. I mean, I'm not going to leave, but I THOUGHT about it. Victories.

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Oct 19, 2013

Nothing new, sorry.

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So, I've been trying to write for months now, but there's nothing. When I'm miserable - and I mean 'I'd prefer to drown myself than be who I am for one more minute' miserable - it still feels like I have nothing to say. I don't know what to tell you. Sometimes, I feel like I'm just fading away and getting dumber every single day. Maybe one day I'll be the type of person who reads tabloids and watches reality TV, and any semblance of self-awareness I possess will have faded away by then. My life feels like it's been reduced to nothing. There are no achievements, no victories, no rewards. All I have are panic attacks and re-runs of Frasier, i

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May 28, 2012

So...

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How is everyone, first off? It's been a long time since I've posted anything here, for reasons best left unspoken. I'm going to catch up with everyone and everything soon, I hope. Let me know how you've been. - Alison

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Kealanah-Sterling

Nov 2, 2018

Hey there I dont know if you will see this or if you still come here but I wish you the Best of Birthdays.

I hope you are well and safe

Kealanah-Sterling

Nov 2, 2015

If you do come here and read things know I wish you the best of birthdays.
I still think of you and the time we shared.
I hope you are well.

Personal-Pariah

Nov 2, 2014

No idea if you're still around, but happy birthday person I used to speak to a bit.

cality

Nov 2, 2013

Happy birthday. I hope you're doing well.

BloodStainAffiliate

Nov 7, 2013

Thank you, dear. You too.

Kealanah-Sterling

Nov 2, 2013

Happy Birthday dear, I hope you are well.
I will be right here when you return someday.

Believe things will get better, you can always have hope.

BloodStainAffiliate

Nov 7, 2013

Thank you.

Hope is a bit much for now, but the tiniest victories really count at the minute, so I guess that I'm at least giving myself some credit. That's a big change.

How are you?